TV persona Nadiya Hussain has revealed she was sexually assaulted on the age of 5 by a relative in Bangladesh.
The 2015 Great British Bake Off winner stated the trauma “played a role” in subsequent put up traumatic stress dysfunction and panic assaults.
In an interview with the Mail on Sunday, she additionally stated she thought of killing herself when she was 10.
Hussain has beforehand spoken of her lifelong battle with nervousness.
She advised the paper she has “no doubt” the assault influenced her psychological well being, calling it a reminiscence that has “stayed with [her] forever”.
Her forthcoming guide, Finding My Voice, is the primary time she has written concerning the assault, having solely advised her sisters lately, and a buddy in school.
“It turned out a very similar thing had happened to her… [and] I think it’s important to talk about it because it probably happens much more than we care to talk about,” she stated.
She advised the paper she solely understood what had occurred to her years later throughout a biology lesson explaining intercourse, prompting her to vomit within the laboratory bench sink.
“If that happened to my children, I don’t even want to say what I would do. I can’t even… just as a mother… I can’t. I have no words. I very rarely have no words,” she added.
Hussain, who grew up in a Bangladeshi group in Luton, additionally discusses being a sufferer of bullying in school in her memoir.
She writes how a boy in her class uncovered himself to her, earlier than calling her a “black bitch” and repeatedly slamming her hand in a door.
In one other incident boys compelled her head into a rest room – a reminiscence that has left her with persistent flashbacks.
She writes about how she tried to kill herself on the age of 10.
“I didn’t know what death was. All I knew was that it meant not living the life I had now – and I didn’t like my life,” she writes.
But she modified her thoughts after her dad and mom introduced her mom was pregnant with her brother, Shak.
“I can’t go anywhere, I have to stay for him. He will need me,” she writes.
Earlier this 12 months, Hussain opened up concerning the bullying in BBC One documentary Nadiya: Anxiety and Me.
“I still have that memory of the water going up my nose and feeling like if they don’t pull me up now I am going to drown with my head in this toilet,” she stated.
Viewers praised her for permitting cameras to observe her as she sought analysis and remedy for “extreme anxiety”.
She spoke about her fixed battle with a panic dysfunction, which she described as a “monster”, in 2017, two years after she gained the Great British Bake Off.
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