Jesy Nelson: ‘It was hard to be happy’ Little Mix star speaks out on suicide attempt

Jesy Nelson: ‘It was hard to be happy’ Little Mix star speaks out on suicide attempt
Jesy Nelson: ‘It was hard to be happy’ Little Mix star speaks out on suicide attempt

The songstress has spoken out concerning the have an effect on the bullying had on her psychological well being, explaining the way it led her to attempt to take her personal life.

Jesy discovered fame on The X Factor in 2011 the place she was put along with Perrie Edwards, Leigh-Anne Pinnock and Jade Thirlwall to type Little Mix.

But as her profile rose, Jesy was topic to merciless feedback on the web about her look.

She has now divulged that prior to her suicide attempt, she felt “jealous” of her bandmates.

“I was so jealous and envious of how pleased they had been. I simply wished to know the way it felt to really feel pleased,” Jesy mentioned on Capital FM at the moment.

Jesy’s inner struggles additionally nearly noticed her depart the group.

She mentioned: ”Yeah [I nearly left the band]. For them [Perrie, Leigh-Anne and Jade], it was hard as properly. They’re residing their dream.

“To have somebody continuously down and depressed on a regular basis, you don’t need that whenever you’re residing your finest life. It was hard to be pleased and console me at occasions.”

The star associated how she didn’t need to get out to see her buddies or carry out.

She defined: ”I did not need to go out with my buddies or go out to work, I did not need to carry out, if I’d see folks within the crowds pointing and whispering. I’d have panic assaults.

“I’ve simply felt very remoted, very weak. Obviously, do not get me flawed, we have all handled on-line trolls.”

Jesy has additionally informed of how she was “addicted” to looking for nasty feedback about herself on Twitter.

She mentioned to the Guardian: “I had a routine of waking up, going on Twitter, looking for the worst issues I may about myself.

“I’d kind within the search bar, ‘Jesy fat’, or ‘Jesy ugly’, and see what would come up. Sometimes I didn’t even want to try this, I’d simply write ‘Jesy’ after which I’d see all of the horrible issues.

“Everyone informed me to ignore it – nevertheless it was like an dependancy.”

Jesy tried suicide following a efficiency on the X Factor in 2013 which attracted extra criticism on-line.

However, a turning level got here for Jesy when she toured as a part of Little Mix alongside Demi Lovato and one of many American star’s dancers prompt she delete Twitter.

As a results of eliminating the micro-blogging web site, Jesy mentioned “everything changed for me and I slowly started to feel normal again”.

Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out airs tonight at 9pm on BBC One.

For confidential assist name the Samaritans within the UK on 116 123 or go to an area Samaritans department.

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